Rarely do you have an epiphany...

Everyone has them, you are doing something which might seem normal and something huge becomes crystal clear in your mind...well, I had one this weekend, and it couldn't have come at a better time.

Let me start out by saying that I am not at all religious, so maybe epiphany is the wrong word to use but alas, it is the word I will steal from the religions of the world.

I went away this weekend and accomplished many of my summer goals (some would call this part of the story the lead in). I was heading to a family cottage for the weekend, with my best friend in tote (because I am the only child/nephew that has yet to found a significant other) we managed to hit up Barrie to visit a friend from school, then onto Pt. Carling where our rented cottage sat on a quiet little lake.

Family arrived and everyone partied together...it was nice to see everyone getting along at our ages (considering the gap's ranged from age 19-age 55). Having family and friends meet and enjoy eachother's company puts the mind at eaze. On the way home we were on our way to Sauble Beach to visit another friend (if you are imagining ontario as a map of the world, Pt. Carling and Sauble Beach are like Tokyo and Europe, but the journey was worthwhile)....

Anyways, I was driving down the road through Collingwood, taking in the scenery of Collingwoods classy feel and just enjoying everything when I had the clearing in my mind (or...THE EPIPHANY)... weird to describe, but it just helped clear up a lot of things:

For example, all weekend people were criticizing my music choices saying they were far to different...how can someone listen to Tina and Ike Turner at one point in time, while having the next song on the c.d. be Billy Idol...

Other thoughts from the weekend included people asking if there was anyone special in my life yet, am I happy with what I am doing in school, and am I glad to be working where I am this summer... At first the gut feelings from these thoughts was negative...was I doing the right thing in school or was I just kissing my money goodbye? ("thoughts arrived like butterflies")...

So, back to the road through collingwood... it just clicked that I do love what I am doing and who I am doing it with ( my friends, family, etc...). For now, school is exacly what I want but in time that might change (as deep down I still dream of broadway performance), and once I got to thinking, being single is one of the best things you can be...

It made me laugh actually when all these thoughts came through my head as all I could think about was how I should be in a relationship, but then at the same time it did strike me that the reason why my parents will never understand as it is impossible to tell them that "casual relationships" are way better than the real deal...

Monday was the birthday of A.M. (who passed away just four months ago...) and I think it was this that made me realize that a) go for my dreams and b) being single is amazing ... and that I miss her a lot...

I swear gloomy weather gets you thinking about deep thoughts, etc...but I am telling you, an epiphany always helps...

--Rob